Finding Solace In My Refuge

Posted on | October 27, 2009 | 1 Comment

It’s where I am when I want to get my frustration out. All that anger and dissapointment I build up during the course of the day gets let out here.

For 2 hours, I can do what I want against whoever I want. It’s where I can let out my pent up anger that I keep bottled up during the course of the day or the week. Any hurt, frustration, or dissapointment I’ve incurred gets let out here.

When I have that ball in my hand, I feel the power that may have been taken away from me from someone else. I know when my defender is weak against me. I know when I see vulnerability. That’s the opportunity that I’m looking for. That’s when I attack and make him pay. To make him regret taking me on. I want to let you know that my day was tougher than yours and I’m going to show you by exerting my will on you. I want you to know that you were wrong for prejudging me and I’m going to make you pay by blowing right past you.

When I bring that ball up court, I’m the leader on the floor. That’s my mindset. I direct traffic. I’m the general. I’m in charge. You want me, come get me.

The more aggressive my defender becomes, the more aggressive I become. I want that ball in my hand as much as possible. It’s when my feet are dancing and I’m herky jerky against the defender that I know I am at my best and he can’t stop me. I see weakness in his defensive stance because he can’t figure out which direction I’m going. I got him.

When he goes straight up against me, I make the decision to go straight at him. If he defends me too tight, I make him pay with a spin move. Whatever it takes to let him know that this moment is mine and he won’t take it away from me. I need it more than he does.

This is where I go to find my solace. To find peace away from all the daily distractions and frustration I have with people. It’s my two hours away from any hurt I’ve incurred. This is my refuge from the world.

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One Response to “Finding Solace In My Refuge”

Christian Oh
October 27th, 2009 @ 11:03 pm

Remind me never to play basketball with you. Especially after a bad day. LOL! JK. Hope you are well. Me, busy as hell. Come to play poker on Friday night at the Foundation for Children of Vietnam.